Wednesday, May 26, 2010

if the children don't grow up, our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.


over a year ago, when i first saw the "where the wild things are" trailer, i got obsessed. SURPRISE. i never do that. anyway. i watched the trailer...quite a few times. and the more i thought about "wake up" being the song used in it, (the trailer, not the movie) the more i was confused. if one hears that^ line, used in the preview, they may think it was a peter panesque line. but it's not. neon bible has lots of lines about imagination and the beauty of childhood, but funeral is about death, and the realization of hard things in life, how we must deal with them, and grow. why would that be used in a preview for a child's movie, i wondered.

Anyway, the movie finally came out, and I didn't see it. and I didn't see it, and I didn't see it...I'm not really sure why...it seems I was just always with those who weren't going to see it, when my other friends were seeing it...I was unlucky...I don't know. Anyway, after over a year of anticipation, I finally watched the film last night. I'd heard tons of reviews, mostly confusing, so I was ready for anything.

I loved it. I couldn't stop analyzing the whole time...I hate when I'm ever a Judith, grumpy and negative and rude, not even the most realistic, just the most rude. I want to be the loveable Douglas, who never causes contention, and everyone loves, but even the Douglases get hurt sometimes...sometimes it's the innocent ones that get hurt the most. Every character in the movie portrayed different aspects of human nature...in everyone. Maybe certain traits/weaknesses/strengths pop up more in some than others, but we all have been in all of their places. One of my favorite characters was Max...the sweet boy who wants to make everything better, but doesn't know how. But no one knows how, no one's perfect in this life, (except for one was, of course) so we've all just got to struggle and try, and accept and learn from failure when it comes. What I loved, and what made my heart ache, the most about Max was the way he tried to pretend his problems didn't exist, his insecurities, his troubles, his sadnesses, and run around and have a "wild rumpus". I think I'm severely guilty of that. The thought of finishing school, getting married, growing up, having CHILDREN....terrrrifies me. Of course I'm excited for it. But. I have to get in every last moment of youth and fun and immaturity before it comes. And it often exhausts me. In many ways. That's why Max went home, because he knows he can't run away. From anything. It just doesn't work. That's one thing he's got on me, and Carol, who I think I'm the most like. One step behind everyone in reality, can't get over the fact KW is changing. (hates change.) Can't get over the fact the life isn't happy all the time, and wishes it would be. I think I've at least gotten to the point that I'm grateful for hard things, because I know it makes me grow, whereas I don't think Carol would be/is. Then poor Alexander, who's often hurt and ignored. NO ONE wants to be him. And no one likes to admit that we're ever him. But we all are. Sometimes. And that's okay. beCAUSE the point of the story is that Max goes HOME. To his MOM/family. And he's sorry about his tantrum, and he's ready to accept some hard things and move on. And not only is Mom waiting, she has dinner for him. And chocolate cake. I'm not saying literally every time you have a bad day you need to literally go home to your mother, I'm just saying EVERYONE needs SOMEONE. We're all mortal. And we all have problems. We all need to find those we love that can help us calm down and stop playing with the wild things, and running away, and face our issues and grow up.

Listen to "Wake Up" again. "We're just a million little gods causin' rainstorms, turning every good thing to rust. I guess we'll just have to adjust!" It's actually incredibly perfect for a trailer of the film.

No one's perfect. It's okay. We all have time to work on it. That's the point of this life. I love that film. I love Maurice Sendak and Spike Jonze and Max Records and Karen O for building this incredible piece of art, (with thousands of other people) triggering this analysis of my life. And for making all of us that have seen/will see the film feel that uncomfortable, but cleansing feeling when we realized we're looking in a figurative mirror. Which we weren't expecting. But we need it, all the same.

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

with the spirit of a hustla

and the swagga of a college kid.
[cool3r than y0u]

Thursday, May 20, 2010

papa, papaRAZZI.













i've changed my stance on tv watching being a waste of time.

my life is better now:

okay, tyler, tucker, dallin, i do want to date someone. his name is jason.


i...just...hahahaaaaaaaaaa


win. and his hair...win.


elmo is SO legit.


as is cookie monster:


MAILBOXES!


please tell me you watched all of those. cause really...we all have nothing better to do.
go sesame street!

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

sleeping is giving in!

but only a little. you do need some sleep.

especially me. sorry, body.

anyway. i was really tired last night, but i chose to watch a movie...again...instead of going to sleep, and i had the weirdest/funniest experience. when the movie was done, a fellow friend watching it asked me about a detail in the middle, and i laughed and said i'd been sleeping the whole time, didn't he notice? and he replied YES, you kept snoring!

of course, i was embarrassed, and insisted i don't snore. (i really don't know if i regularly snore at night, because anyone that shares a room with me usually goes to bed before me and wakes up the same time as or after me, so...haha.) it may have just been because i was so severely lacking in sleep...haha. doesn't matter. anyway.

as i thought about the weird on and off sleep i'd collected during the film, i remembered hearing obnoxious snoring, that wouldn't stop, and i couldn't tell where it was coming from, but i just wanted it to STOP so i could SLEEP. the loud fakey soundy snore he described i had, was exactly what i heard.

WHAT. how is that even possible? i don't know. but ...that's hilarious. and i need more sleep. hahahahha.

lucid dreaming?

Saturday, May 15, 2010

all black[s]

first of all, whenever anyone uses that term, and i make a funny noise, like i'm about to be excited and tell a story, then just mutter to myself, it's because i always jump to the conclusion they're talking about the rugby team from new zealand.
but you never are. (mostly.)

anyway. that had nothing to do with anything. except it's happened like everyday this week.

ANYWAY.
jossie boo boo left her computadora en mi sofa, so i'm going to tell you about an adventure i just had. no. i'll show you:
okay yeah i'll tell you. if you'd like to have a nice chat with nice people in the middle of the night when lots of your friends have sleeping and homeworking duties to attend to, the best option is probably to find a cave.

no, it's definitely to find a cave.

tonight, my love and adoration for a miss peck and a mr. mcArthur certainly increased.
haha.
really though.
summer's great.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Fall 2012


I just put a few big fat envelopes in the mailbox this week...and even though it was a one way conversation (obviously), it felt like i was catching up with my best friends. a lot. and i've just had warm fuzzies ever since, thinking about when we really do catch up. and i get to see their little man faces.
if i didn't know the gospel was the most TRUE and WONDERFUL thing ever, i probably wouldn't be able to survive their being gone-ness.

but i do.
so it's okay.

tbear, kirkle, francis, jordie, danny, jonrose, spp, nater, kevbot, spacker, eth: i love you all BUCKETS. and i MISS YOU.
but it's okay.
see you in a little.

Monday, May 10, 2010

Dear Bathroom Sink:

Thank you for swallowing the Draino.
We promise we won't make you swallow any more hair. or anything gross that makes you sick.
just cute things like toothpaste and soap.
pinky promise.

love,
the NEW A12

[it's cause] [we] bless[ed] the rains down in africa.

Monday, May 3, 2010

ew.

i just....
okay. so my mom brought me straight to work. from kville. and i thought we'd get here in time for me to go to my apt and change first...but then the dogs...and laundry...and stuff...i had to go straight to work. in sweats. and a t-shirt.

now normally, i have a strict policy against wearing sweats in public, specifically on campus. and i realized i would be breaking that as i walked into work.

however, because it's spring term, when i walked out, there was hardly anyone. so i was like whhheeew. i made it.

then, right as i left the wilk, i passed a kid wearing an Armani t-shirt. with considerably beautiful jeans....

shame.

that's all i have to say.

Sunday, May 2, 2010

home is whenever i'm with you!

okay...dandelions are flowers too.



jdawgs.

provo library lawn.
alec's (pre) birthday.



(inside of) beautiful fort. totally fell asleep (to peter pan soundtrack) in this, me rub and ratch's last night.

goodbye kidz.

MAY is bustin' out all overrrr!

sooo. i was thinking. back when i didn't go to college, may was such a great month. it was warmer outside, projects were being finished, school got a little easier, and everyone was in a better mood. :)

wait...already did that...awkward. okay. sooo. what's it supposed to be now?


haha anyway. i'm home right now...and it's just so confusing. i was hungry, and went to the pantry, and was so overwhelmed by the vast amount of food i'd actually like to eat...i ended up eating nachos, with premade sauce. healthAY missy, good job. anyway. i was playing with my padre's sd card to find a picture of baby mckay and landed on these treasures:


the easter bunny TOTALLY still visits this fam. hahha. (kyle and i searching)
and tiff was insistant that pregnant ladies are fully capable of hunting...(she was serious, she got like twice as many as me. though, i did get less than EVERYone...i'm not aggressive enough. haha.)
post hunting...(check out marshall's egg-hunting gear, please)

just kinda cute. and epic. (yo, mi mama, mi abuela, y mi hermano hiking in Zion's in Feb.)
my dad is a super winner at capturing great moments on camera. (also hiking in Zion's in Feb.)

sooooo...this week, our family expanded. here's mckay dale blanch in his daddy's arms:

nine pounds four ounces. big baby. :)
my family is great. and hilarious. i stole these all from my padre.
go family.