i have a LOT of unposted blogs. and to be honest, about half of them are because i'm too scared to post them, not because they're too personal.
a dear friend once reprimanded me for this, and i vowed i would post them, someday. because no one really cares. just me. i think i will post them all at once... before the end of the year. they might offend. oh well. i'm getting really bad about being aware of social niceties. i'm ready to go home. then leave and serve. :)
it's odd for me, blogging now, 'cause even though i know other people read...it felt like i was mostly blogging for myself and rachie. so now i'm mostly blogging for myself? haha.
also, it is true: dancing gives one more endorphins than...anything. yesterday i was considerably stressed, i had like four hours to do like seven hours worth of activities, and i ran home to eat, and i was met by a wall of excellent sound blasting from everywhere, and dear friends dancing in the middle of it. i danced for maybe two minutes, but it was so excellent.
i love thursdays, because: the weekend has already (sneakily) begun dinner club is usually crazy 30 Rock is on i only have two classes i get to sleep in tuesday AND wednesday are over i don't have creative writing i usually skip spanish (for mental health reasons...i will go crazy if i go every day. period.) i get tomato basil soup (okay that was just yesterday. thanks maaaam. :) )
aaaaaand no one ever watches videos on anyone's blog blah blah blah (well, i do. so here.)
"...It takes a night to make it dawn And it takes a day to make you yawn brother And it takes some old to make you young It takes some cold to know the sun It takes the one to have the other
And it takes no time to fall in love But it takes you years to know what love is It takes some fears to make you trust It takes those tears to make it rust It takes the dust to have it polished
Ha la la la la la la life is wonderful..." -Jason Mraz, "Life is Wonderful" on Mr. A-Z this, honestly, has been one of the best days in awhile. it feels like christmas i'm so happy. mostly, because my bestie friendie rachelface barney entered the mtc.
missions, are soooo, GREAT. and i was finally able to really embrace that, and be happy for rachel (and julia) last night. it was really happy and chill, hardly any tears, saying goodbye. :)
kay...i'm not doing the grateful thing, cause there is no way i'd remember to blog everyday. but i have to make a little list. right now. .all the people in my life...and no longer in my life. homeward, homestake, neighbors, teachers, schoolmates, high school friends, freshman year friends, sophomore year friends, every summer ever friends, junior year friends, work friends, church leaders, every best friend i've had/have, and of course, most of all, my FAMILY. .the gospel. i'm so grateful to have the truth in my life, to have guidance through everything i do, to be involved in the church, an organization so awesome and inspired, to know of Christ and His love, and the atonement, and our Heavenly Father, and His plan, and His love.... .an education. as much of a brat i am about it...i love learning. and i'm very grateful for the opportunity, and for the school i'm able to attend, and for my family in helping me make it here, and stay here. I love BYU, honor code included. :) .my life. .music. .love. (all kinds) .snow. .clothes. .smiles. .good food. .funny people. .computas. .cell phones. .shoes. .sports. (like futbol and snooowboarding...) .soap. .showers. .the postal service. (like, the real one. but i love ben gibbard too.) .having a roof over my head. .living in a democratic, capitalistic, mostly open-minded nation. .being able to see, smell, speak, hear, taste, and touch. .growing up in cute kaysville. .the fact we can all say sorry. .forgiveness. .humility. .marriage. .the innocence of children. .the incredible power of laughter. .my momma and dad. .pokemon. (if you were born between '88 and '92, IT WAS COOL.)
also...i just discovered this. and i love the way his sweet voice captures the song in such a different way than dear glen hansard...
i used to have a very bad temper. i think i've mellowed out a lot. but i often still take things too personally. like, i'll get sad because someone's angry about something i inadvertently messed up. OR, when people don't take me seriously.
i like making lofty dreams and plans, but if i look you in the eyes, and i tell you i'm going to do something, (especially if i tell you multiple times, at different times) i have every intention of doing it.
just so you know.
two things: this year has gone by SO fast...i think because it was so busy. spacker is home in 17 daaaaays! beautiful.
oh and a third: (i can't stop listening to this. i don't think it'll ever get old...i've loved it awhiiiile)
confession: i no longer look forward to halloween. actually, i dread it. because i'll have tons of beautiful, hilarious, individual, and group costume ideas that are GENIUS, and none. will work out.like tonight, i think i'm going to be yellow. (we're being the visible colors of the spectrum. ha.)
HM.
i've decided i'll just have to use my children for my wonderful ideas. like:
